I felt like a hurricane hit me when Trevor died. Unfortunately, the storm didn’t stop, and when I thought life was getting easier, another storm would hit. Can you relate? I told a friend once that, just as I was able to get up on my knees after one storm, another wave would knock me over. Have you ever asked God what he’s doing? Why he won’t give you a break? I have. Irreverent. Ungrateful. Real. God knows your heart; you don’t have to hide your true feelings from him. He knows when life is hard, and he understands your pain.
I know several sweet women who have also walked the difficult road of losing their husband. None of them – not one – didn’t have multiple difficulties afterward. There’s a financial and legal nightmare to wade through when you’re trying to grieve. Every widow wants to do paperwork and make phone calls when she’s trying to cope with life on her own. Money is tight, and you try to figure out how to pay the bills and take your kids to counseling and pay for all of their usual activities and needs. Illness comes. Relationships break. There are always struggles, and they just keep coming.
I don’t say this to depress you. I say it to show you you’re not alone. There’s nothing more that Satan would like than for you to believe you’re alone, abandoned. That everyone else has a peachy, easy life while you’re struggling to survive. Know that your life is hard, dear friend, but you’re not alone. Hang in there. God is doing something to build your character that he wouldn’t be able to do without these difficulties.
A potter makes all different kinds of vessels. Some are made for normal, everyday use, but some are made special. They take more work, more molding and remaking. God’s making you into something special; you just have to trust the process and know that he’s making you into something beautiful. You may see broken and hurt and struggling, but God sees you as already beautiful because he knows what the end result of your suffering will be.
We have scars on our heart – scars that will always be there this side of eternity, but rest assured, because of Easter, we have a Savior who also has scars. The scars that prove his love for us. And the night before he died for our sins, he spoke these words to his disciples about suffering: “In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” (John 16:33b) Jesus knew how much his followers would suffer for his name, and he wanted them to know that what he was about to do would forever change how they’d view their trials. The same is true for us, sweet friend. Because Christ conquered the cross by rising again, we know that all of our difficulties are temporary. Now that’s something worth celebrating this Easter!
“For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever!” 2 Corinthians 4:17-18, NLT